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The Muddy Path


Can you guess in which photo I feel the most powerful, confident, happy, blessed, unstoppable and fearless? Some might think the first picture...but they would be wrong. I have never felt more on top of the world, alive, strong and confident than when I complete a Spartan šŸ’ŖšŸ»

There was a time (lol, actually a LONG time, much of my life)that I placed value and defined my worth based on my looks and even more so on the opinions of others...and whether it was good or negative, I viewed myself through the eyes of others and my own self-deprecating, self-defeating, self-loathing filter. Yes, even as I trained hard, watched what I ate, dressed up for photo shoots and posed on stage and in front of the camera, I was being judged by my harshest critic. Myself. But I have chosen another path. šŸ’ŖšŸ»

I chose the muddier one...the one that doesnā€™t place emphasis on what my body looks like, but rather focuses on what it can do. It gives me skills and strengths to work towards improving. And I have a hell of a good time...plus I can still wear my waterproof/mudproof mascara and feel damn pretty, even covered head to toe in mud, scrapes and bruises. Iā€™m not knocking anyone down for NOT taking this route. Because beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Iā€™m simply saying that my choice has changed my self image and I have learned to love the real me. Not the image of me that others preferred to see.

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